Monday, December 31, 2012
good bye, 2012!
Friday, December 28, 2012
waktu dan kamu
Selalu bersamaku kemanapun ku pergi
Kuanggap ini bukan hal yang negatif, ataupun positif Ini hanya reaksi netral yang dihasilkan dari reaksi masa kini dan harapan masa depan
Seperti jarum, menyakiti kedua pihak namun menyatukan
Atau mungkin seperti gunting yang memisahkan
Sesuatu yang indah yang tercipta meski tak selalu terungkap
Terbungkus sang waktu sehingga kita tidak dapat melihatnya
Saturday, December 22, 2012
I have read one of my friends' blog and realized how mature she is.
She said that whoever you are, as long as you are a human, you have at least a problem in your life.
And she definetly right.
For me, I used to keep asking why for every problem I faced. but now, I can stop asking and continue have faith that My Father in heaven is doing everything for shape and turn me into my best.
And the important thing is I never walk alone.
I may not see all over the world.
I don't even understand how the words of God created all the beautiful things in this world completely either.
But surrounded by family, best friends, and other good people, it is clearly enough to see that I am loved by Him...
2 Samuel 7:28
28 And now, O Lord God, you are God, and your words are true, and you have promised this good thing to your servant.
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Miracles happen
Miracle happens when I open my eyes every morning
Miracle happens when I can hear their laugh
Miracle happens when I think about you
Friday, December 7, 2012
Prajurit yang kesepian
Tertatih melewati derita yang dilawannya dengan senyuman
Hanya dalam hati yang tersayat air mata ikut menetes
Ia menghadap langit dan sadari betapa terbatas penglihatannya.
Prajurit yang kesepian Tiada dapat mengeluh dalam berperang
Terdiam untuk bersembunyi dari letusan senjata musuh
Tidak dapat mencegah debu mewarnai wajahnya.
Prajurit yang kesepian Hitam debu itu tak sehitam hatinya.
Merah itu bukanlah merah Biru tidak lagi biru
Jarak pandang terlalu sempit untuk melihat semua
Prajurit diciptakan bukan untuk mengerti tapi untuk menerima
Apa dayanya untuk mengubah? Adakah asanya untuk berubah?
Apa yang membuat hijau terlihat menjadi hitam?
Hatinya curiga karena munculnya ungu ketika hanya kuning, biru, dan putih yang ada.
Mengapa cahaya ikut tenggelam?
Ah, apalah gunanya ia bertanya?
Prajurit diciptakan bukan untuk mengerti.
Hanya diciptakan untuk menerima.
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Me again :)
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Monday, November 5, 2012
P 56:3
Pada awalnya gua lulus, gua berpikir akan mudah mendapatkan pekerjaan seperti yang sudah-sudah. Makanya gua mau dua bulan seneng-seneng dulu. Ternyata saudara-saudara, cari kerja memang mudah, dapetin yang cucok yang susah.. xD
The worst part of finding a job is .... "PENIPUAN".
Gua hampir aja kena tipu.. :(
Jadi gua liat di salah satu website job vacancy gitu tentang suatu kerjaan. Gua melamar sebagai management trainee. Beberapa hari kemudian gua mendapat e-mail undangan untuk interview. Awalnya gua senang banget karena gua cek lagi website nya, mereka lagi mengembangkan usahanya di negara-negara Eropa. Gua coba liat, produk apa sih yang mereka jual.. Di situ gua mulai curiga karena kok gua ga menemukan apa yang sebenarnya mereka produksi. Pikiran-pikiran curiga itu gua ganti dengan positive thinking. Gua pikir, lokasi kantornya aja di M.H. Thamrin..., pasti bukan kantor abal-abal..
Nah, malam hari sebelum gua interview, gua coba googling dengan keyword nama perusahaannnya.
Sad, auto text yang keluar "nama perusahaan itu"(Spasi)Penipu.
Ada yang gak beres nih, pikir gua.. Gua buka link-link nya ternyata itu blog suaminya yang istrinya hampir kena tipu. Gak cuma satu link aja, bahkan ada forum diskusi tetang penipuan itu.
Gua lega sih. Puji Tuhan, gua perlu ngeliat muka-muka penipu itu.
Gua juga percaya Tuhan sudah menyiapkan pekerjaan yang terbaik untuk anak-Nya.
When I'm afraid, I will trust in you..
Psalm 56:3
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Baru ngertiiii...
Gua baru ngerasain apa arti peribahasa "tua itu pasti, dewasa itu pilihan"
Kehidupan itu menyerahkan keputusan kepada gua. Sikap gua itu keputusan gua.
Dalam menjalankan kehidupan respon perasaan maupun sikap gua menjadi hak gua. Gua berusahalah untuk gak emosian lagi atau kebawa perasaan.
Gua suka heran juga ngeliat orang yang sudah menerima yang terbaik dalam hidupnya tapi kok gak mau gitu berbagi, mengalah, atau malah mau mengambil hak
Gua baru ngerti kenapa dulu tuh mantan pacar gua marah kalau gua ga mau minta pertolongan dia.
Gua baru ngerasain ternyata rasanya tuh kaya lu tau sahabat lu lagi dalam kesulitan tapi dia gak bilang sama lu dan sekalipun dia bilang lu ga bisa bantuin apa-apa.
:(
Nah, sekian dulu yaa.
Semoga akan ada banyak hal-hal lainnya yang gua ngerti dan bisa gua tulis di blog ini.
Kalau punya pendapat sendiri monggo dikomentari yaa..
:D
Student #2
Kalau lagi latihan dia juga jarang menatap mata gua. Kalau gak diinstruksiin dia juga ga bakal gerak. Awalnya agak bingung juga sih ngajarnya gemana karena otak gua udah berasumsi yang aneh-aneh. Ternyata setelah gua coba ngajar dia, orangnya memang sedikit lebih lambat mengerti daripada orang apda umumnya. Dia pernah mau berhenti main piano karena gak punya piano. Orangtuanya gua liat berusaha banget beliin dia piano. And finally he's got one.
Sulit untuk mendeskripsikan B lebih lanjut karena B sendiri orangnya sangat pendiam.
Mama nya pernah bilang sih kalau B anaknya pemalu banget. Gua pernah terkejut waktu tau ternyata dari rumahnya ke sekolah musik itu mengendarai motor sendiri. Tadinya gua kira dia anak yang di-protect banget sama ortunya.
Gua salut sih sama B dan keluarganya karena gua merasa keduabelah pihak itu pantang menyerah.
Untuk B gua sarankan lebih belajar ketukan. Misalnya gak ada metronome coba clapping dengan ngikutin arah detik jarum jam. Terus B belum hafal tuh do = C, re = D, mi = E, fa = F, sol = G, la = A, si = B.
Penjarian B juga masih belum bagus. Semoga B semakin rajin berlatih jadi setidaknya bisa memperbaiki posisi jari dulu. Semangat yaa B.
Because of you by Kelly Clarkson
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery..
I will not break the way you did you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid....
I lose my way and it's not too long because you point it out
I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life.
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid...
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid....
Because of you
Because of you
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Student #1
Untuk mengenang masa-masa ini maka gua ingin menulis tentang karakter murid-murid gua.
Tentu saja namanya dirahasiakan. Hehe..
Murid yang pertama akan gua ceritakan adalah seorang laki-laki kelas 6 SD.
Inisialnya G.
Dia baru dua bulan jadi murid gua. Dulunya dia murid rekan gua tapi mungkin karena kurang cocok jadi mereka berpisah.. *lho. hehehe..
Rekan gua sudah mewanti-wanti gua ketika tau muridnya pindah ke gua.
Dan memang sih pas ngajar G ampun deh, geleng-geleng gua.
Gak mau dibilangin anaknya. Orangnya suka-suka. Misalnya gua minta dia main lagu nomor 1, kalau dia mau ya dia main. Kalau dia gak mau, dia bakal bolak balik buku terus main lagu lain -_-"
Kalau udah gitu kan gua nya yang mesti tegas. Pertamanya gua masih nurutin dia. Masih pelajari karakternya gemana. Tapi kok dia belum berubah-berubah gua baik-baikin juga. Akhirnya gua berbicara dengan lantang,
Gua : "Siapa gurunya?"
G : "Kakak"
Gua : "Sekarang main yang ini!"
G : *nurut
Gua : (dalam hati "HAHAHA")
Tapi pernah juga dia marah sama gua. Canggih ya anak sekarang, bisa loh ngebentak gurunya..
Gara-garanya dia masih berusaha main lagu terus gua koreksi karena dia mainnya salah.
Dari situ gua bisa liat kalau dia tipe nya anak yang mau ngelakuin semuanya dulu baru habis itu diajarin. Jadi gak bisa tuh gua koreksiin pas dia lagi main lagu.
G suka banget ngobrak ngabrik barang-barang bawaan gua. Metronome gua sering banget dimain-mainin. Kalau liat gua bawa laptop dia langsung buka laptopnya terus bilang "mau main game". Nah, ini kesempatan buat gua untuk membuat dia latihan. Kalau dia mau latihan dan nurut sama gua, 10 menit terakhir dia boleh main game online. Fantastis nya dia bisa loh lancar main lagu nya.
Makanya dia itu cerdas kalau gua liat. Untuk G, gua berharap supaya dia bisa serius main piano nya. Kalau neken tuts piano jarinya harus sesuai sama yang di partitur, jangan ngasal aja.
Semangat G!
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Pergi
Monday, October 22, 2012
Bunga
Saturday, October 20, 2012
To know more to love more
If you never feel sad, you never know how does it feel to be happy. If you never feel lonely, you never know how does it deal to share with a bunch of people. All thing in life contradicts itself, but without one another, you can't say that you're really feeling alive.
Friday, October 19, 2012
October
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Dua hari untuk selamanya :)
Apa yang ingin kamu wujudkan ketika kamu memiliki sisa waktu 48 jam dengan mereka?
Kami dapat berenang bersama. Menikmati setiap percikan air yang menyentuh kulit.
Kami dapat berjemur di bawah terik matahari dan merasakan kehangatannya.
Kemudian terkejut karena perubahan warna kulit kami.
Setelah itu aku menyadari bahwa kehangatan memang membawa perubahan :)
Kami dapat bernyanyi bersama. Membuat melodi-melodi indah seperti kenangan kami.
Kami dapat tertawa bersama bahkan pada hal-hal yang sebenarnya tidak lucu.
Kami menikmati malam bersama
dan dengan lugu memesan makanan dengan rasa pedas yang tidak tertahankan.
Kami tidur bersama-sama dan terkejut saat terbangun karena melihat wajah yang lain tepat di depan wajah kami.
Saat kami kehilangan arah untuk menentukan tujuan, kami selalu kembali ke awal dimana semua dimulai.
Ketika detik-detik terakhir akan terlewati, yakinlah itu bukan yang terakhir.
Doa akan tetap mempersatukan ketika bahkan ketika jarak memisahkan kita.
Doa adalah cara kita memeluk dari jauh...
I'm gonna miss our togetherness, guys..
(I already miss it)
:")
Friday, October 12, 2012
Bernyanyi~
Thursday, October 11, 2012
The answer
Differences is not about hating someone especially someone you love the most.
And guys, hating me will not make me stop loving you.
That's the very best decision I can make.
:)
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Enjoying life
Monday, September 24, 2012
good bye, don't cry, and smile :)
There are always problems with communication. I often can't tell exactly what's on mind to around.
Sometimes I can't understand what other's meant as they wish. In other time, I talk about statements that I can't accept personally. My morality holds my opinions to somebody for the sake of keeping their heart. but I doesn't I can't be honest. I can be all I am when I am with people whom I trust and love. But my trust and love maybe can't be felt by them, especially when I express it. They've thought I hate and judge them with my feelings and that's just horrible because everything messed up. My feelings ruined everything. I won't regret anything. at least I try. I've been thinking about this and I'm sure they will be better without me. Let's go back to the past when you are all have never met me. When I wasn't a part of this group. Let's go back into the past when you all are fine with my absence. I'll go on my own way but please, just don't forget me.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
mencari jalan pulang
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Which way to go....
Listening other students practicing piano, keyboard, and violin.
I realize I'm falling in love for the first time... with music...
After passed my theses defense I decided to focus on learning (and enjoying) music.
For me it is so hard of enjoying something. Some people tell me that I am so serious in this life.
Now here I am... Enjoy, relax, see the world in a different perspective.
I have taken a vocal class. I was late and my teacher kind a young handsome guy :3
I felt so nervous. He told me that I should come on time next class but.... I was late again. five minutes late. I thought it made him bad mood so he looked stern at me. I hope that was just my feeling not in reality. He said I have a problem with give out my voice to the air. He is right. It is difficult to talk about what's on my mind or what's happening. I guess I'm not good at verbal ability and have limitation vocabulary.
I also have taken a violin class. My teacher... I guess he need to learn how to be more patient. I can teach him if he let me but give me a free of charge. HAHA... I had no idea why I CAN'T follow the beat exactly. I need to practice more and more.
What makes I'm afraid is deciding a wrong option. Yesterday I talked to my boss and he told that life is choice. He described what I can get if I still working in his office. He told me he would promote me to be a manager in his music school and my salary will be two digits in my early adulthood. And also I have more time to learn violin and improve my skill on piano. I can imagine how happy my life if I can life like that.
But I know. Life is not that simple. I've learnt about four years in university with my parents' money. How could I do nothing with it... I want to work in formal office with some colleague, have lunch in a restaurant, talk about business, chit chat about each life, make a lot of friendships...
I have to choose... Deep in my heart, I want to stay in music but I can't. In October (after graduation) I will start looking for a job.. Wish me luck..
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Unreal vs. Real Life
Saturday, July 28, 2012
HAPPY \(^0^)/
"berdasarkan hasil rapat dari sidang skripsi kamu dan kompre maka kamu dinyatakan lulus"
kata dosen penguji satu sambil terlihat membereskan kertas-kertas yang ada di sekitarnya, tapi saat ia berkata 'lulus' pandangannya beralih kepadaku.
Perasaanku sangat lega, Sejujurnya sangat 'shock' karena beberapa hari sebelu sidang, aku mendengar ada temanku yang tidak lulus. Dengan proses pembuatan skripsi yang begitu rumit, susahnya bertemu dengan pembimbing, pendeknya waktu untuk menyusun analisis, sulitnya mencari subjek, masih adanya beberapa mata kuliah, dan hal-hal lainnya yang cukup berat aku alami dan membuat aku ragu apa aku dapat lulus Juli ini.
I was keep on running for my theses and decided not to stop without knowing if it will finish in July.
Sambil harap-harap cemas menunggu hasil semester genap ini juga karena kalau ada satu saja mata kuliah yang tidak lulus berarti harus tunggu sidang sampai semester depan. Puji Tuhan, semuanya lulus dengan hasil yang memuaskan.
Beberapa hari kemudian aku mendapat kabar bahwa tanggal untuk sidang skripsiku sudah ditentukan 24 Juli 2012. Rasanya setiap harinya adalah perjuangan melawan rasa gelisah dan ragu. Aku sempatkan menginap di rumah Dhanie untuk belajar teori kepribadian bersama untuk sidang kedua setelah sidang skripsi. Di rumahnya, kami hanya sempat mempelajari tiga tokoh saja dari sekitar lima belas tokoh.
Aku kembali ke rumahku dan setiap hari aku mempelajari teori kepribadian tersebut sampai sebelum hari sidang. Tentu saja aku sudah membuat presentasi jauh sebelum hari sidang jadi aku tidak perlu memikirkan hal tersebut lagi. Aku hanya perlu mengecek semua slide-nya dan memastikan semua sudah lengkap.
Ruang Rapat lt.4 Jam 08.00-10.00. Dengan dosen penguji satu yang seorang Doktor dan dosen penguji dua yang merupakan seorang praktisi ilmu psikologi. Sempat beberapa menit aku protes sama Tuhan tetapi kemudian aku tersadar aku tidak boleh mengandalkan kekuatan siapapun kecuali Dia.
Malam sebelumnya banyak sekali yang mendukungku dengan mengirim pesan singkat, rekaman suara, mention di twitter, bbm atau bahkan bertemu langsung padaku. Semua itu membuatku merasa aku tidak sendiri melalui proses ini. Mereka sangat berjasa.
Aku tidak dapat tidur. Seberapapun aku berusaha.. Aku tidak dapat tidur nyenyak.
Jam empat pagi aku bersiap dan jam lima aku berangkat dari Bogor diantar oleh adikku dan ditemani ayahku. Sekitar jam 6 aku sudah ada di depan sekretariat. Bertemu dengan beberapa dosen. Mereka menyemangatiku dengan perkataannya. Aku berusaha untuk tetap santai.
Ketika ingin mempersiapkan presentasi di ruangan sidang, aku melihat dosen penguji dua sedang membaca sesuatu yang aku duga adalah skripsiku. Sekitar jam tujuh aku mendengar dia berbincang dengan dosen penguji lain dan pembimbing kalau ternyata dia salah baca skripsi. Aku merasa tenang juga. karena dengan begitu aku berpikir bahwa ia tidak terlalu memahami skripsiku seutuhnya. Namun kenyataannya berbeda. Pada saat sidang, justru ia yang lebih banyak berbicara dibanding dosen penguji lain. Setelah melewati detik-detik menengangkan, aku harus melewati detik menegangkan lainnya yaitu sidang teori kepribadian. Bertolak belakang lagi dengan pemikiranku. Ternyata sidang teori kepribadian tidak sesulit yang aku bayangkan sebelumnya.
Setelah sidang selesai aku keluar ruangan dan mengabarkan berita gembira ini kepada ayah dan teman-temanku yang lainnya. Terima kasih, Tuhan. Fantastis!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
forgetting dreams
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
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Monday, July 9, 2012
the best man in every year
a man who never give up |
but you work too much
You keep everything alone and try not to make us worry
You know there's no perfect life but you've tried making our life to be easy
A very responsible man for your family
Thanks for teach me how to be tough
Thanks for teach me not to give up in every situation
Thanks for loving us so deeply
I'm sorry for a wrong thought about you
I thank God I have a dad like you
You know,
You always be the best..
The best.
I want the world to know that I have a very great dad.
I love you, dad.. Happy birthday. :*
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Observer =D
Monday, June 25, 2012
Sunday, June 24, 2012
he never sleep by don moen
Just remember the Lord will hear and the answer in on it's way
Our God is able
He is mighty
He is faithful
And He never sleeps He never slumbers
He never tires of hearing our prayer
When we are weak He becomes stronger
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him
Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten our need
Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see
Our God is able
He is mighty He is faithful
Thursday, June 21, 2012
think about future..
qou vadis....?
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
knowing this my friend!
You better talk to the people you dislike about your problem with his/her behavior than talk about it behind him/her.
You never find a solution if you never open your mind.
Don't be so childish, my friend.
Friday, June 8, 2012
two are better than one..
Saya tidak menyangka, bahkan tidak pernah terpikirkan... bahwa jika pada akhirnya saya harus kehilangan seseorang karena kejujuran saya. Harapan saya untuk dimengerti sepertinya tidak akan terjadi. Sekarang saya baru paham bagaimana hubungan dapat rusak; lebih banyak karena kejujuran daripada kebohongan. Seperti kata Jhon Lenon, bagaimanapun lebih baik dibenci karena menjadi diri sendiri daripada harus berpura-pura untuk disayangi.
Terima kasih atas semua proses pembelajaran yang sudah pernah Anda hadirkan.
Saya tidak akan pernah menganggap Anda musuh atau lawan bahkan ketika Anda menganggap saya demikian.
Tidak ada kata lagi yang saya akan coba katakan.
Sunday, June 3, 2012
It should be...
Today I had my very first time piano classic concert, playing Mazurka in B flat by Chopin.
Very happy because my friend, her brother, and cousin wanted to come to see my playing.
I woke up and prepared dress, make up, everything perfectly.
Attended devotion first at 9 a.m then had breakfast.
My friend said she can't come because a reason.
Took public transportation to the location. I arrived at about 12 p.m
I had been scheduled at 1 p.m but MC called me to the stage after 15 minutes.
And I was not ready enough.. but what can I do? I walked to the white grand piano.
Nervous. Played.. Finished..Heard some applause.. and walked back to my teacher..
Then I met my Sunday school student came to perform too.
Meet a violin and vocal instructor in a music school I teach.
Meet my sister and her boyfriend also.
After the concert, I joined some guys to Jakarta.
But I don't know, I feel alone.
They like strangers. or I am the stranger? Completely feels like a stranger.
Today is very different with what I imagine..
My decision ruins my imagination.
Please self, relax, and laugh a lot..
The world need it...
i put my practice here.. sorry for a little mistake in a middle of the song.. promise, next time will be better.. xP
Saturday, June 2, 2012
June Wish..
Friday, June 1, 2012
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Sunday, May 27, 2012
friends or foe? #part2
i don't know what are you thinking about conceived of friendship.
are friends is the recourse when you have no one else?
are friends more than a raiment for you?
or just ravens that eat all the seeds on storehouse?
you toil too much to be loved.
you array your words and it sounds so beautiful.
I supposed that was right, that was true.
I don't know why you always suspicious with others
You seem so insecure
Maybe this is a novitiate for our friendship
Or God just want me to abandon you
Therefore I'm thinking now
Are you deserve to accept my kindness when you behave so crude at me?
If you still beside me, I think you don't feel that is a privilege since I'm not a magnate just like what you expect
I don't have any intention for having a friendship with you but the sake of this friendship.
I convince my own way on God. He has the supreme rules. He wants me to forgive you although your words and behaviors hurt me so bad. I fairly want to give up.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
why money?
A friend had ever asked like this: "Have ever bought a Charles and Keith shoes or some shoes that have big brand name?" (means: expensive shoes). My answer: not yet.
Maybe she can buy anything she wants because she have money. But me? I haven't finished my education yet, don't have a job with high salary. So I don't waste my money or ask my parents to buy just for that kind of things.
Unfortunately, my netbook have broken by my fault.
I need to buy a new one.. :(
The good news my parents give me money to buy.
So I take the money, bought it with my dad yesterday, and promise I'll give my salary this month to them..
I'm happy but also regrets my fault.. Huhhuhuhuu...
I want to show you my photo experiences with my new netbook.. So funny I think.. Please don't laugh..
Friday, May 11, 2012
a best friend~
Thursday, May 10, 2012
In case of emergency
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
It's Okay. I pray you'll be recover soon.
am trying to do it. Espcesially today.
I'm tired of complaint. It doesn't change anything but exhausted mentally.
Today I have an appointment with my thesis advisor at 2 p.m in Campus.
So I went to Campus, you know by what? of course train... but... what make it special is I take ecomy class train because I don't want to be late and the fisrt train is the economy one ..
If you live in States, Japan, Aussie, Singapore, or other developed countries there will be no worry take the economy.. but in Indonesia... *sigh* just look the picture
economy class train |
There was no more empty chair so I stand up.. a lot of smoking people there. I thank to the Lord for He let me sit in Stasiun Cilebut (next railway station after Stasiun Bogor). And.. I fell a sleep 'till Stasiun Sudirman.
Finally I arrived in Campus. I sent my thesis advisor a text message, told her I already in front of her room. No response.
After an hour, I had got a text message from her.. She said she did send me text message in the morning, told me she has a fever, need take some rest, and can't go to Campus. She really sorry and apologize about that.
I only replied: "It's okay, ma'am. I pray you'll be recover soon."
Yeah.. I learned to praise the Lord whatever the situation.
So I decided to go home by train but I must take transJakarta to reach Stasiun Cawang.
I bought the ticket. SUDDENLY my chairmate on Junior high school sent me bbm. She said she want to mourn our junior high school teacher. I said to her that I still in Jakarta, in front of Plaza Semanggi. She said she was in front of Plaza Semanggi too. She asked me to join her, back to Bogor by her car. WHAT A MIRACLE.
We talked about many things. She encouraged me to learn english more and more. She asked me to play piano in her new restaurant. After that, we went to Sinar Kasih, mourned.
I learned how to be thankful in any conditions. I learned how to not give up. I learned how to save friendship as well.
Thank God for this beatiful day. This is only by Your Grace.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Ku kan berharap padaMu
Monday, May 7, 2012
more about "t"
Sunday, May 6, 2012
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Friday, May 4, 2012
I hope fashion is a friend
Who can make my face up like this? I can't do it by my self :( |
the dress -149 USD, so expensive :( |
The shoe.. I don't know how much it price |
Mimpi~
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Sunday, April 29, 2012
the unconscious
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Aman dalam perlindungan Allah
TUHAN adalah terangku dan keselamatanku, kepada siapakah aku harus takut? TUHAN adalah benteng hidupku, terhadap siapakah aku harus gemetar?
Ketika penjahat-penjahat menyerang aku untuk memakan dagingku, yakni semua lawanku dan musuhku, mereka sendirilah yang tergelincir jatuh.
Sekalipun tentara berkemah mengepung aku, tidak takut hatiku; sekalipun timbul peperangan melawan aku, dalam hal itupun aku tetap percaya. Satu hal telah kuminta kepada TUHAN, itulah yang kuingini: diam di rumah TUHAN seumur hidupku, menyaksikan kemurahan TUHAN dan menikmati bait-Nya.
Sebab Ia melindungi aku dalam pondok-Nya pada waktu bahaya; Ia menyembunyikan aku dalam persembunyian di kemah-Nya,
Ia mengangkat aku ke atas gunung batu.
Maka sekarang tegaklah kepalaku, mengatasi musuhku sekeliling aku;
dalam kemah-Nya aku mau mempersembahkan korban dengan sorak-sorai;
aku mau menyanyi dan bermazmur bagi TUHAN.
Dengarlah, TUHAN, seruan yang kusampaikan,
kasihanilah aku dan jawablah aku!
Hatiku mengikuti firman-Mu: "Carilah wajah-Ku"; maka wajah-Mu kucari, ya TUHAN. Janganlah menyembunyikan wajah-Mu kepadaku,
janganlah menolak hamba-Mu ini dengan murka;
Engkaulah pertolonganku,
janganlah membuang aku dan janganlah meninggalkan aku, ya Allah penyelamatku!
Sekalipun ayahku dan ibuku meninggalkan aku, namun TUHAN menyambut aku.
Tunjukkanlah jalan-Mu kepadaku, ya TUHAN, dan tuntunlah aku di jalan yang rata oleh sebab seturuku. Janganlah menyerahkan aku kepada nafsu lawanku, sebab telah bangkit menyerang aku saksi-saksi dusta, dan orang-orang yang bernafaskan kelaliman.
Sesungguhnya, aku percaya akan melihat kebaikan TUHAN di negeri orang-orang yang hidup!
Nantikanlah TUHAN!
Kuatkanlah dan teguhkanlah hatimu! Ya, nantikanlah TUHAN!
(diambil dari Mazmur 27:1-14, Terjemahan Baru)
dedicated to Aloincuuuung..!!
Friday, April 20, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Gratitude
In one situation there are two choices of thinking. See the goodness or the badness. I'm not talking about 'half full' or 'half empty' glass. No matter how full or how empty glass, the best thing to do is 'give thanks'. Thanks for the water on it. Even if there's no water on it, still give thanks, no matter how you feel. Yeah, maybe it seems weird and hard but complain doesn't change anything and give thanks is better. And someday, I'm sure, you can see that the moment you are facing now is the best moment you have no matter how you feel.
So no matter how you feel, gratitude is always the right and the best decision.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
starting point
So many time I raise and fall (again).
But the only I think I know is I never give up.
I was born not to give up.
After yesterday all night crying aloud with nobody know (okay, now everybody know..),
I guess I start to know how to fix all the broken pieces of me.
God knows how to heal me just like this song:
Tuhan Yesus setia, Dia sahabat kitaDalam sgala susahku, selalu menghiburkuDia mengerti bahasa tetesan air mataWaktu badai mengamukDan gelombang menyerangTuhan Yesus setia
I'm so happy today because I can meet my cousin from Australia and Daniel from Bandung also. Unfortunately, His wife can't come but I'm happy because My family can skype-ing with his wife.
Abang and Daniel came to my home and will stay for two night. I'm so excited about this. We can do so many things and have some fun (please, without thinking about thesis)
Tonight, abang was looking into my eyes and says to me,
"once you are in the downiest place, the only way you have is to raise up. Untuk maju, terkadang kamu harus berani dan nekat."
Well, that are the tools I need: "move on and brave"
Hmm.. I'll try and let me see what will happen next.
God bless you, all.
Friday, April 6, 2012
can't be move?
Uh-huh.. maybe some of you think I'm an unstable, immature, and have an irrational thought.. Frankly, I am.
Everytime I want to move on there's a moment that make me stuck on this comfort zone..
It should be my weakness: Once I love someone, it will be forever.
I call it weakness because... love makes me weak.. give up to others.
But, I don't want to be like this forever... I'm sure love is make you strong not make you weak, right?
Promise (again), I will never write any galau post...!! note it...!!
Monday, April 2, 2012
Where are you?
Why you have to dissapear and not giving me any clue to find you? |
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Four Inspiring Men
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