Monday, February 27, 2017

Harus pilih apa

Selalu banyak pilihan di sekitar kita.
Mana yang harus aku ambil, aku tidak tahu.
Terlalu banyak rahasia di sekitar kita.
Meskipun sudah mempertimbangkan, mungkin saja masih dapat salah memilih.
Meskipun sudah tahu, mungkin saja masih tidak dapat menerima.

Monday, February 20, 2017

Stand Firm.

God bring me this far through moments that I wish I don't have to go through if I knew it my choice is so tough. But I will be guilty if I just sit in my comfort zone and missed the chance to improve my self just because I am afraid and faithless. What a dilemma.
This struggling with my own self, relationship, financial, and dreams just like never ending story.
People who usually be with me, one by one walking away from the circle, and it is normal.
Friendship sometime just seasonal and it is normal.
I financially not independent anyway and it influences everything (and it is normal).
The normality have driven me abnormal sometimes.
I hope all of this can be the exercise to stretch my faith.
Do the things not what I believe I can do but do the things that God believe I can do through Him.
I don't wanna be a person who wasting my potential just because I am afraid. Just because my feeling kills myself. I don't want to be a zombie who live but actually died. I want to be fully develop my self and not wasting my potential to be the best I can be. And I don't mind if God put people in my journey and walking together. But when the time is coming and I have to lose them, I may not lose my self.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017


Terlalu banyak janji yang terdengar.
Terlalu banyak orang yang berjanji.
Dan kekecewaan jauh lebih banyak dari apa yang dijanjikan.

Bagaimanapun, tetaplah tersenyum.
Semua ini pasti akan berujung kebaikan.

Bagaimanapun, tetaplah berdiri.
Tetap melangkah meski tak pasti.

Selama kekuatan itu masih ada.

Bangkit lagi.
Menata lagi.

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