You raise me up

Today's Preaching

Today I went to another Church in Jakarta. I attend the service with a friend of mine.

The Pastor was from Philippine. Automatically I remember my old friend in that Country and wondering how he is doing.. Okay, that's not what I want to tell. Hehe.. ^o^

I would like to share what the Pastor teach.

At the moment Jesus raise to heaven He told us:

Go you therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatever I have commanded you: and, see, I am with you always, even to the end of the world. Amen.

(Matthew 28:19-20)a

He doesn't call us to just put a "Christian" as our religion. He wants more than that. He want  a relationship between Him and His people. "Christian" is just written not more than three times in the bible but "disciples" written more than a hundred. "Christian" is a religion. "Disciples" is a relationship between a leader and a follower. He wants an intimacy relationship because He loves us.

How can we conclude that He loves us? 

Because He gives us freedom.

 

God said in

John 14:15: If you love me, keep my commandments.

Any first word in the bible is written is the most important thing.

Where's the first command of God in the Bible?

Genesis 2:16

And the LORD God commanded the man, "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of knowledge of good.

Why He doesn't want us to eat that fruit?

- He wants us to Free.

Free is a statement of love. Free means you don't need to pretend to be liked by others. Free means you can choose anything you want. He wants us to keep choose if Him when we tempt leave Him but He never forces us to do that.

He wants we do everything because we love him instead of afraid of Him.

Don't you think that He exactly know Adam will sin against Him of eating the forbidden fruit? 

Yes!!

He is surely know but why God is let Adam do the desire of Adam's own heart?

Because every relationship is based on trust. Trust is the foundation of love. Love is the motive of the relationship.

- Eat is the most enjoyable thing we can do.

So every time we eat we should remember God and thank Him for the food He is given.  

- He wants to do alone to show us what we should do what we should not.

He wants a relationship like a father advice his child.

The fact, we know finally both Adam and Woman eat that fruit.

Do you know the history why Woman can't trust a Man? 

Adam let the Woman eat the forbidden fruit. Why he doesn't stop a Woman to eat for he know God says that whoever eat that fruit will be died? He used the woman and watching whether she would die or no. Maybe in the CCTV of Eden shows Woman take fruit but who knows Adam hold the stair used by the Woman. And after all, When God ask Adam if he eat the forbidden fruit, what Adam said? Adam blamed the Woman and even God.

Genesis 3: 9-10

But the LORD God called to the man, "Where are you?" He answered, "I heard you in the garden, and I was naked; so I hid."

I am sure God knows where is Adam but He asked deeper than Adam physically. God asked:
Where is your heart? Where is your trust? You trust the evil? The woman? or me?

Where is our relationship?

Without trusting God, man is stupid! Adam was afraid, insecure, and the Woman lies. She said the Evil tempt her but actually she tempt by herself, admire the fruit itself.

So do we. When we do wrong, we feel afraid, insecure, and tell some lies.

God doesn't let his people died. He gives both of them pain as a signal when they do the wrong thing rather than kill them. So if we feel pain, maybe financial pain, heart pain of others, or any pains, those are a signal of God questions: "Where are you?","Where are your heart?", "Where is our relationship?".

Pain is an act of mercy.

And Finally God himself receive the pain at the cross, the pain that we should feel.

He has forgiven us because He loves us.

Forgiveness is a recipe of a relationship.

As God has forgive us we should forgive others.

:)

*What a nice preaching today

Life is an Art #1

Finally, here I am.
In the middle of the night writting this post
at home.

I thank God,
now I have a (better) job after graduation.
I am so sorry I can not sharing about the office here.

but.. I need to adjust my self at SO MUCH in the office.

I am sure that my personality is totally change.
I have learnt a lot here.
A LOT.

I thank God
I have grown up and see the true world


Thank God I can learn SO MUCH things that I have not learnt at school and university.

Learning is never ending.

I thank God for everything happen in my life.
For the blessing I can not see.
For every breath that I take.
For my brain that still have full conectivity to control my body.
It is so wonderful.
That is a miracle.

I thank for every person who support me.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

for a friend out there

Don't cry and let me hug you.

I know you are trying your hardest.

Student #2

Okay, kali ini gua akan bercerita tentang murid gua berinisial B. Seorang laki-laki yang udah SMA. Pertama kali gua liat dia, orangnya agak aneh. Kepalanya nunduk kalau jalan dan punggungnya dibongkokkin sama dia.
Kalau lagi latihan dia juga jarang menatap mata gua. Kalau gak diinstruksiin dia juga ga bakal gerak. Awalnya agak bingung juga sih ngajarnya gemana karena otak gua udah berasumsi yang aneh-aneh. Ternyata setelah gua coba ngajar dia, orangnya memang sedikit lebih lambat mengerti daripada orang apda umumnya. Dia pernah mau berhenti main piano karena gak punya piano. Orangtuanya gua liat berusaha banget beliin dia piano. And finally he's got one.
Sulit untuk mendeskripsikan B lebih lanjut karena B sendiri orangnya sangat pendiam.
Mama nya pernah bilang sih kalau B anaknya pemalu banget. Gua pernah terkejut waktu tau ternyata dari rumahnya ke sekolah musik itu mengendarai motor sendiri. Tadinya gua kira dia anak yang di-protect banget sama ortunya.
Gua salut sih sama B dan keluarganya karena gua merasa keduabelah pihak itu pantang menyerah.
Untuk B gua sarankan lebih belajar ketukan. Misalnya gak ada metronome coba clapping dengan ngikutin arah detik jarum jam. Terus B belum hafal tuh do = C, re = D, mi = E, fa = F, sol = G, la = A, si = B.
Penjarian B juga masih belum bagus. Semoga B semakin rajin berlatih jadi setidaknya bisa memperbaiki posisi jari dulu. Semangat yaa B.

The answer

Finally I realize my last decision is wrong.
Differences is not about hating someone especially someone you love the most.
And guys, hating me will not make me stop loving you.
That's the very best decision I can make.
:)

Thank God

It's Okay. I pray you'll be recover soon.

Do you remember about my post days ago about gratitude?
am trying to do it. Espcesially today.
I'm tired of complaint. It doesn't change anything but exhausted mentally.

Today I have an appointment with my thesis advisor at 2 p.m in Campus.
So I went to Campus, you know by what? of course train... but... what make it special is I take ecomy class train because I don't want to be late and the fisrt train is the economy one ..

If you live in States, Japan, Aussie, Singapore, or other developed countries there will be no worry take the economy.. but in Indonesia... *sigh* just look the picture

economy class train

There was no more empty chair so I stand up.. a lot of smoking people there. I thank to the Lord for He let me sit in Stasiun Cilebut (next railway station after Stasiun Bogor). And.. I fell a sleep 'till Stasiun Sudirman.

Finally I arrived in Campus. I sent my thesis advisor a text message, told her I already in front of her room. No response.
After an hour, I had got a text message from her.. She said she did send me text message in the morning, told me she has a fever, need take some rest, and can't go to Campus. She really sorry and apologize about that.
I only replied: "It's okay, ma'am. I pray you'll be recover soon."


Yeah.. I learned to praise the Lord whatever the situation.
So I decided to go home by train but I must take transJakarta to reach Stasiun Cawang.
I bought the ticket. SUDDENLY my chairmate on Junior high school sent me bbm. She said she want to mourn our junior high school teacher. I said to her that I still in Jakarta, in front of Plaza Semanggi. She said she was in front of Plaza Semanggi too. She asked me to join her, back to Bogor by her car. WHAT A MIRACLE.

We talked about many things. She encouraged me to learn english more and more. She asked me to play piano in her new restaurant. After that, we went to Sinar Kasih, mourned.

I learned how to be thankful in any conditions. I learned how to not give up. I learned how to save friendship as well.

Thank God for this beatiful day. This is only by Your Grace.

(mis)trust

 

Talking with others is still difficult for me.

It begins when I was kid

I have some friends and I told them about a boy that I like.

They told to others.

I told to someone that I used to think I could trust

but she's not.

Well, that makes me so quite about my self, feeling, and mind.

I keep it on me (and my journal day sometime :D)

It is so hard to hard to keep it all alone.

I couldn't share my feeling.

I couldn't share my mind.

And I was suffering uncounciously.

I met someone, I know him very well, I guess..

but not close.

I don't why, I can talk about my feeling like sadness, madness, happy, and hope to him.

Hmm.. but I feel shame about what I've told.

:(

On the other hand, I feel so great than ever.

It just like you trash your dump from home to outside.

Now your home is clean just like new.

You can renovate your home,

:)

Today,

I heard from 'C' that she heard my private story from 'K'..

hmm.. Frankly, I am a bit disapointed...

But now I am a new me.

It's alright.. I don't want to make "a mess in home" again.

Next time, before I tell about my privacy I should make sure that someone wouldn't tell anyone..

To the brother that I talk about my problems.

Thank you for listening.

Thank you for supporting.

Thank you for being there.

God bless you,

and your family,

always.

:)