June, you remind me about my childhood.

It's June already.
Yes, don't be surprise. We are in the middle of the year now.
I am pretty excited about what will happen for I am sure there will be many struggles ahead and I believe in every struggle I will see God's grace and His kindness that brings goodness.

So I want to share about one of struggles-miracles phase in my life.
Hopefully you remember about the last post when I wrote about the self-development program from Campus. I take a chance for an extension session in weekday- counseling. Today.
Personally I did not make any preparation, what to tell, what to complain about, or else.
I just try to figure out what trait of me that possible to be the obstacle in my internship.
At first, this is it: moody. Predictable, isn't it?
She helps me find ways no to be moody anymore.. I think I can try it anyway.
And I do not know why, I could not hold my tongue to share about a part of my childhood and remember what I had been through. If you want to know, my childhood was terrible.

Kinda what I feel when I was a kid. 

                             
I talk to my counselor: "Ma'am, I..was... a terrible person, a difficult person... Maybe I had all the disorders in the DSM.. I had commit suicide three times without no one knew. I could hide all my feeling and pretending everything was going fine. Without no one knew. Yes, without no one knew. I didn't have a childhood life that every child dreaming of. But if I see my life now... I am amazed.. that I have grown up to be a strong young lady."

"The only person you need to compare yourself to is who you have been.
The only person you need to be better than is who you are now." 

Throwing back my childhood always feels like God has been exposing my uncountable sin and also my weakness, yet show me how His faithfulness that always change me to be better continuously and how His unending love never fails work on me.. I believe that struggle-miracles phase is one of some ways how God wants us to be surrender at Him, depend on no one but Him.

God doesn't waste anything.
You are not defined by your past. You are prepared by your past. 

It makes me do not want to stop chasing the calling that He has put on me as a (soon to be) psychologist. Knowing that I have a privilege to do a part of His great plan for anyone whom He will send to me, even when it seems impossible and beyond my ability..

"God doesn't call the qualified. He qualifies the called."

Have a little faith by Mitch Albom

"Where there is a sweet, there is an ant.", said one of my friends looking at me staring and take steps at a book corner.
There is not really many books there, I had once take a book from it but not finish read it... give up maybe? So I return it, and try to find another book.

Have a little faith finally got my attention because of the title. My mind asking a question. Why just a little? Then I look the back cover and interested! It is say "As is often the case with faith, i thought I was being asked a favor. Actually, I was being given one..."
The contradiction on that sentences made me decided to read that book.
I am as not a fast reader, can proudly finish the book on 7 days. lol.

Have a little faith is biography of two people with very different background. Micth Albom can combine it perfectly. I love his writing skill. Easy yet deep.

Have a little faith teach me the secret of happiness and how faith woks. It teach me also how to appreciate others people's life, choice, anything that different from us because everyone is unique and our knowledge is limited. And it need faith to believe that every diversity brings goodness in God's masterpiece of life.

And the answer of my question: Why just a little faith?

Faith is necessarily needed in our daily life. No matter how small or how big faith is. Faith is faith. And faith really do something in our life.

The book is worth to read. And recommended!

Perfect month to close the year

For some people, especially Christian, maybe Christmas time is the moment that they are waiting.
Christmas can be a tradition, a party, an event, a moment to meet relatives who long time no see.

And some people lost the meaning Christmas itself.
And maybe, I was one of them.

But this year, Christmas has a different meaning for me.

If you clearly understand all the post I wrote in this year, then you will see this year is not the easy one. It's the hardest yet the most beautiful year I ever have so far.

The Selfish, self-centered, egoist - me.
The things God wants to expose in my life.

He talked to me in early year of 2014,
but I didn't listen.
He talked to me again in March of 2014,
I listened but I forgot it.
He talked to me (again) in May 2014,
I pretend I didn't hear.
Every month, He never gives up, trying to talk to me.
So this December, I don't want to runaway anymore.

Listening to Him and do that He wants, that's the best thing what I can do right now.
For the one who really know me perfectly is Him alone. I believe His training for me is the best way to shape me.

He changes my perspective about any kind of relationships.  

I used to think that any relationship, including friendship only consist of happiness. Happiness should be beautiful, no pain.
And it is funny when I see, happiness no longer comes from beautiful things but the pain, the hurt, the scars.
  

A bitterness no longer be a bitterness but sweetness.

I can see the one who wants to protect me sometime just get angry with me because I did something wrong while I think, if someone love others, they should be kind and no need to show tension.

I can see the one who says 'I love you' can be not really mean the words.
The one who act sweet, but actually the their sweetness only can bring me down because they are just not mean the behavior.

The truth is when we love someone, then we will think what is the best for the one we love, isn't it?

Then we will fight the world, anything, that can makes the one we love to be worse. Because we need to see the one we love, grow up, better, and be the best of their-selves. Am I right?

I'm sure I am right!

What I learn is "To love others means to lose yourself."

I think this is what God wants me to listen and do. When I say, "I love you, Lord." means I need to lose my self and do what He is asking to me although I don't want to.

I hope this Christmas will be the perfect time for me to understand and 'die' then let Christ born in my heart, in my life.

September Ceria!

Time Flies!

Gak kerasa bulan Agustus udah lewat aja. August was so fun yet so hectic.
The most memorable moment on August is when I gathered with my old friends.

And an unpredictable thing happened last month. Going back to University is beyond my imagination. Tapi kalau mau ngeluh juga jadi bertanya-tanya sendiri: "Siapa yang mau sekolah lagi?" atau pertanyaan, "Siapa yang suruh punya cita-cita?", kadang muncul juga pertanyaan, "Jadi lu mau nyerah nih?"
Untuk menjawab pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu gua hanya bisa tertawa. HAHAHA.. Ya, ya, ya.. Semua gua yang mau dan seperti yang sudah-sudah, gua gak berencana untuk menyerah kok. Tenang aja (tapi sambil ngais-ngais tanah).

Bulan lalu belajar banyak hal juga, berasa banget banyak hal yang mesti diubah, ada yang mesti ditambah, ada juga yang harus dikurangi. Seperti post sebelumnya, the choice is mine. I think I made a big thing decision last Saturday and need to explain my choice on this weekend. Feeling so terrible sih sebenarnya. Campur aduk dan setelah nanti menjelaskan gak tau bagaimana kelanjutannya. So far, I think I can accept the consequences and continue enjoy my life.

Bulan ini gak terlalu banyak rencana so I can't wait for October. On October, my brothers will back from Egypt and Kalimantan and we already have some plans to do!

September, please be nice!
October, I'm so excited on you!

(sometimes) significant other is nothing

It is so annoyed when someone always push you to do this - to do that.
I hate being forced to do something that I don't wish to.

But it will be different when the one who asking you is your significant other(s).
At first, you will find it's okay to do something they think it's good for you.
For example, when you confuse to choose your way of life, they will give some suggestions. Their opinion will influence you so much. They will talk like they know everything about you and sure what's the best for you. Your trust your significant others, they make you do their suggestion (with pleasure) - until it become 'nightmare' for yourself. They will put their hands up and say, "Up to you" or "I have no idea". They are look so irresponsible.

The truth is the responsibility of decision about your life is yours.

The choice is yours.

Comfort with the uncomfortable - Speech BM 4 - Toastmaster

Comfort with the uncomfortable 

Imagine that in front of you there is a mirror. Look at yourself. The mirror starts to reflect who you are right now. See deeply and it will tell you, who you were in the past. You will remember what you have done. See your eyes, and it will show you who you want to be.

Type of personality

So now I ask you, who you are?

What personality do you have?

No one has the same personality even twins. But some people tend to have some similar traits. Some people can be so extrovert and the others can be so quiet. Some people like to be with others, some people like to be alone.

There is a popular theory about personality named DISC. They determine people to 4 characteristics.

D for Dominance, an active people. Dominating, directing, and driving people.

I for Influence, an active person. Inspiring, impressing, interactive, interested in people.

S for Steady, a passive person. Stable, shy, security-oriented.

C for Compliance, a passive person. Careful, compliant, calculating.

Dominance and Influence are more focus on project, plans, and program. Steady and Compliance are more focus on relationship, emotion, and caring.

Now, may I know what personality do you have?

Comfort zone

It is good to know yourself. But some people make their personality as their excuse to keep on going in their comfort zone. For example, people tend to say: “I am dominant, it is natural if I am bossy”, “I am an influence, it is normal for me to talk a lot and people have to listen to me”, “I am a steady person, I will never can stand in front of people”, “I am compliance, how if I am not good enough to do the presentation? Oh I’m so worried”

Me, as a Steady and Compliance combination personality, I prefer not to verbalize feelings, will give in rather than argue, resistant to change, and lack of enthusiasm. What a perfect combination to be stagnant. Maybe that is why it takes a long time for me to continue my basic manual.

I have a very comfort zone in my carrier now. My bosses are really nice, the environment is very friendly, the benefit is also good, and the job desk is no longer difficult. I feel very comfortable and bored at the same time.

Everything has changed when my friend told me that he has accepted work in overseas. He makes me remember my dreams that I have written when I still in college such as travel the world, have my own happy family, and have my own company.    

The advantage if we’re out of comfort zone

To be relaxed without an effort to develop myself more is a comfort zone. It may look comfortable and it is a beautiful place but we will never grow there. It’s a matter of survival. Comfort zone is just a resting place not a destination. And to get out from the resting place means you need to do the opposite. From restful to hardworking. From comfortable to uncomfortable. From no difficulty to facing some difficulties. I believe, as the reward, we will get the opposite as well. The reward is bigger than the suffering we may feel.

So now the challenges of Steady and Compliance like me are to be more positive, not to worry too much, be bold and strong, be confident, fearless, and be more enthusiastic. Turn the fighting mode not to compete with others but be ourselves. Try to be comfortable in an uncomfortable situation after you feel comfortable, prepare yourself to the next uncomfortable zone. 

“Know who you are, and be it. Know what you want, and go out and get it!”

The invisible hand

I believe of the invisible hand that open the door I cannot see. 

A right 'sign' to go

Crowded, dark, and windy.

That night I was behind a man who drive a motorbike.

We were going to my friend's office building in Kuningan.

I'm not a pretty much passenger who always look after the road. I trust the one who bring me to go. Trust is enough. Until something happen....

A car beside us hit the motorbike and bleed my foot.

I was shock, panic, scared.

I have seen so much accident, in the movie and also in real life, but I never wish that someday I will be the victim.

The car gave 'left' sign when the driver still wanted to go straight. How come a kind of`a very stupid person like that can get his driving license????? *mad mode on*

I don't mean to blame anyone. Really. 

I just want to thank God, I still have my foot here. 

This accident can be done not only in road but also in real life especially in love life. If you are now approaching someone or in a relationship, please give the true sign where you really want to go. Then people around you can understand what should they do. Go to the left, right, straight, or just... stop.

:)

February – Month of LOVE (Friendship Love)

Having a psychology issue always need more effort to have friends, even just a friend, or close friend(s). Blessed me, I have improved myself - when people around me with their kindness trying to get close to me, I brave enough to welcoming them!

At the first time, I think, “How if I look silly on their eyes?”

“How if they can’t accept my presence”

“What they will do with my unfunny joke?”

And proudly write a story about ‘How I met KamiKita’ to bomce, cinday, gadsam, aloince, dance, rince, and me also J here it goes:

If you all remember, it was a shining afternoon. I sat around you, guys. Waiting for class? Hmm, at first, YES! But… You all persuade me to skip the class for reasons! Hahaa. But it’s okay. I have another class with you all. An everlasting class of friendship starts from that day.

Before we left Hall C, I let you all know about my broken heart with my ex boyfriend. I broke up with him in 14 February when people call it a day of love. Never mind, that is not my point anyway. Then we are all went to Plaza Semanggi to lunch, talking each other, window shopping, and forget about the class.

Day by day, we are getting closer. I know you all better. Maybe not closer just like you are all each other. But I thankful that you guys trust me enough to tell your secrets. And secret makes friend stronger.

Actually not only secret, every struggle we have, made us has more attachment. One day, I have a conflict with one of you. At that time, I though like this: “You don’t understand me. You are a very egoist person. Why in this earth there is a person like you? You are just like a heartless girl. You don’t deserve a friendship if you don’t appreciate your friend!”

Month by month, we didn’t contact. We just like a stranger, cold and uncaring, act like we didn’t know each other.

And sometime I blamed myself for that and though it would be better if I went out from all of you just like at first time. One of you, said, that was not totally because of me so then I didn’t need to walk out. 

Then, I stayed.

Finally, we met in one of our friend and you talk to me as usual just like nothing at all. Actually, I felt awkward at that moment. But deepest in my heart, I felt happy.

And now all is clear between us. No more angry, hate, or negative emotions.

She is now the only one who walks in when the others walk out. I proudly say that the one I thought my enemy is become my best friend.

For you all, you are the priceless gift from God. I’m glad we can meet and improve each other. Keep our friendship will last until we become grandma. Hahaha.

And to one of you that I don’t know where you are, please stay.

Just stay.

Stay.

Lost in the rain

Everything has changed!

Dreams, wishes, hope. They seems disappear in this early year. 

That is exactly not a good sign. That is why I write this post. I want to announce the world that I will not stop even it means I will be go in ways that I never imagine before.

And through this post, I will let you know that I have accepted in Magister of Psychology of Atma Jaya.

I am so excited . This is my dreams since I was in Junior High School. My dreams to be a Clinician finally only a step ahead!

Everybody knows it is not easy to reach dreams. Yes! In the very first way reaching my dreams, I've got my first challenge. I have been very struggle with this challenge. Really. My big dreams crush with another small dream that I wanted so much as well. People may tell me that I should leave my big dreams because it needs more efforts and time rather than my small dream but give me much happiness. And I had been agree for awhile.

Praise the Lord, He opens my eyes.

Great things never come easy. When you easy to be happy of something, be careful, maybe your happiness will leave you quickly. Easy come, easy go.

So now, I don't want to hide anymore. I only live once. Life. Be crazy (in a positive way). Say good bye to fear. I don't want to be better than others. I just want to be the best of myself!

The rain will never wipe my hope. My hope will come just like an heavy rain! I will lost in the rain of love, hope, and faith.

@Jakarta

Rain outside,

Cynthia

My Reward of Work

The reward of our work is not what we get but what we to become. -Paulo Coelho

I absolutely agree with his quote. It is more than a month I absent in writing. Maybe I am too busy write, too busy too think, too busy to express in words.
So now, in midday, I take time to write some things I want to let myself know what exactly that I am doing here.

Poor me. Sometime I don't know what and why I am doing here. All I know is I can life from here. But this is not my life. But, blessed me, I can learn and change to become a better me.
Here are what I become in about one last year:

- Patient
Almost every-time I take a deep inhale-exhale. It usually happens in office when to-do list is overload, especially when I must do the work that does not exist in my job descriptions. I also learn to be patient from the stubborn people here.

- Preparation
Wake up earlier, tidy up my small room, order the clothes, keep clean my table work, etc.
Making sure I have all the weapons before I go to war!!

- Assertive?
This is it. How can it so difficult...? I still learn it. Please, anyone, teach me how to be assertive..

- Hope
The last but not least.
Hope makes me feel fresh in the morning.
Knowing I still can reach my dream today.
For today I will get what I need for my tomorrow.
Hope makes me can dream.
Hope brings my dream back into my mind, into my life.

I hate being here but I know I have too blessed to be stressed.

So I am continue learning - to fly - reaching my dreams.

Improving self

Hi Everyone!
I hope you all are well.

I am so sorry my last post was so emotional and I can't promise that will be the last one. Haha. It's not so easy for being an introvert, pleghmatis, and melancholis at the same time. But I will do better from now on. =D

From my last (bad) event of my life I have learnt, do, and think a lot, a lot than I did before.

I let go my mistake, past - every past that make me stuck in the comfort zone.

I joined an english club, sport club, take vocal course (my vocal is getting better each day!), more active in youth community at my church, I talk first to stranger, finishing some books I bought, renovate my room, trying to be an assertive as well as I can be, more confidence talking at the public, helping parents more than I did last year.

I still have some plans for the future. I want to go around the world, see the beauty of God's hand. Learn some languanges as much as I can (although my Jappanesse is not getting better for now.. xD)

I did some improvement to my self and I am happy with that. =D

I realize someday I will be old and on that time I don't want to regret everything I didn't do in my youth.

When a door is closed, be sure God opens another door for me to go. My faith is He directs my path in the right way. That's why I don't have to be worry.

I believe there's never too late to be better.

I love you, Father =D

You raise me up

I will (really, really, really) miss you, guys!

Today's Preaching

Today I went to another Church in Jakarta. I attend the service with a friend of mine.

The Pastor was from Philippine. Automatically I remember my old friend in that Country and wondering how he is doing.. Okay, that's not what I want to tell. Hehe.. ^o^

I would like to share what the Pastor teach.

At the moment Jesus raise to heaven He told us:

Go you therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatever I have commanded you: and, see, I am with you always, even to the end of the world. Amen.

(Matthew 28:19-20)a

He doesn't call us to just put a "Christian" as our religion. He wants more than that. He want  a relationship between Him and His people. "Christian" is just written not more than three times in the bible but "disciples" written more than a hundred. "Christian" is a religion. "Disciples" is a relationship between a leader and a follower. He wants an intimacy relationship because He loves us.

How can we conclude that He loves us? 

Because He gives us freedom.

 

God said in

John 14:15: If you love me, keep my commandments.

Any first word in the bible is written is the most important thing.

Where's the first command of God in the Bible?

Genesis 2:16

And the LORD God commanded the man, "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of knowledge of good.

Why He doesn't want us to eat that fruit?

- He wants us to Free.

Free is a statement of love. Free means you don't need to pretend to be liked by others. Free means you can choose anything you want. He wants us to keep choose if Him when we tempt leave Him but He never forces us to do that.

He wants we do everything because we love him instead of afraid of Him.

Don't you think that He exactly know Adam will sin against Him of eating the forbidden fruit? 

Yes!!

He is surely know but why God is let Adam do the desire of Adam's own heart?

Because every relationship is based on trust. Trust is the foundation of love. Love is the motive of the relationship.

- Eat is the most enjoyable thing we can do.

So every time we eat we should remember God and thank Him for the food He is given.  

- He wants to do alone to show us what we should do what we should not.

He wants a relationship like a father advice his child.

The fact, we know finally both Adam and Woman eat that fruit.

Do you know the history why Woman can't trust a Man? 

Adam let the Woman eat the forbidden fruit. Why he doesn't stop a Woman to eat for he know God says that whoever eat that fruit will be died? He used the woman and watching whether she would die or no. Maybe in the CCTV of Eden shows Woman take fruit but who knows Adam hold the stair used by the Woman. And after all, When God ask Adam if he eat the forbidden fruit, what Adam said? Adam blamed the Woman and even God.

Genesis 3: 9-10

But the LORD God called to the man, "Where are you?" He answered, "I heard you in the garden, and I was naked; so I hid."

I am sure God knows where is Adam but He asked deeper than Adam physically. God asked:
Where is your heart? Where is your trust? You trust the evil? The woman? or me?

Where is our relationship?

Without trusting God, man is stupid! Adam was afraid, insecure, and the Woman lies. She said the Evil tempt her but actually she tempt by herself, admire the fruit itself.

So do we. When we do wrong, we feel afraid, insecure, and tell some lies.

God doesn't let his people died. He gives both of them pain as a signal when they do the wrong thing rather than kill them. So if we feel pain, maybe financial pain, heart pain of others, or any pains, those are a signal of God questions: "Where are you?","Where are your heart?", "Where is our relationship?".

Pain is an act of mercy.

And Finally God himself receive the pain at the cross, the pain that we should feel.

He has forgiven us because He loves us.

Forgiveness is a recipe of a relationship.

As God has forgive us we should forgive others.

:)

*What a nice preaching today

Sang Phantom dan Kamen Rider

Beberapa waktu lalu, aku makan siang di Cafe kantor bersama beberapa temanku. Salah satu dari mereka sangat menyukai Kamen Rider, aku asumsikan, dia mengidolakan Kamen Rider.

Kamen Rider itu sendiri yang aku tahu adalah ksatria baja hitam. Meskipun aku anak perempuan, ketika masih SD aku sering sekali menontonnya. Aku senang sekali dengan pembela kebenaran. Setelah jaman mulai berganti dan film-film generasi 90 mulai bergeser dengan abad millenium, memori tentang cerita imajinasi ksatria baja hitam juga mulai pudar bahkan hilang.

Saat makan siang itu, rekanku membawa samsung galaxy note-nya agar dapat menonton salah satu episode kamen rider wizard.

Seru juga.

Terlebih seru tentang terjadinya "Phantom". Phantom adalah tokoh antagonis dari film ini. Setiap manusia memiliki Phantom dalam dirinya. Phantom terwujud dari harapan manusia yang mati. Ketika manusia menyerah dan berpikir tidak ada harapan, ia secara otomatis berubah wujud menjadi Phantom.

Phantom... Dia akan menyerang manusia lain dan membunuh harapannya.

Wujud Phantom sangat mengerikan, namun bagiku, lebih mengerikan manusia normal yang sudah tidak punya harapan.

Dalam diri seorang Kamen Rider sebenarnya juga ada Phantom. Namun ia berhasil mempertahankan harapannya. Oleh karena itu, ia diberi penghargaan sehingga bisa menjadi Kamen Rider.

Inilah tugas Kamen Rider: Ia harus menyelematkan harapan orang-orang yang diserang oleh Phantom.

Film ini adalah fakta dengan tingkat imajinasi yang tinggi.

Sabar versi lain

Belakangan ini aku banyak belajar hal-hal yang baru maupun diingatkan tentang hal-hal lama atau perpaduannya. Kalau dalam antropologi mungkin bisa dibilang alkuturasi dan asimilasi.
Begitulah kurang lebih.

Semua yang aku pelajari membawa aku lebih bahagia. Ya, aku belajar memilih BAHAGIA untuk meresponi kejadian yang terjadi. Tentu aja ada kejadian yang pertamanya bikin sedih, kesal, dan jengkel. Kalau aku terus-terusan jengkel, hal itu membawaku semakin terpuruk. Aku memilih memikirkan apa yang aku punya dan bahagia karenanya.

Dari pemikiran tersebut, aku belajar untuk BERSYUKUR dengan apa yang aku miliki. Berfokus dengan apa yang ada dapat membuat yang ada itu berlipat ganda. Setiap yang kita miliki adalah bentuk rasa percaya Tuhan pada kita, termasuk kelemahan-kelemahan kita.

Aku bersyukur juga memiliki KELEMAHAN, dari situ aku dapat menyadari siapa yang tulus mengasihi aku.
Aku harus mengucapkan terima kasih untuk dua hari belakangan ini pada dua orang yang berbeda.
Terima kasih mau menerima kelemahanku, menunggu dan bahkan mau berjalan BERSAMA untuk membantuku.
:)

Aku menyimpulkan semua itu menjadi satu kata: SABAR (dengan pengertian yang berbeda dari pemahamanku sebelumnya).

Life is an Art #1

Finally, here I am.
In the middle of the night writting this post
at home.

I thank God,
now I have a (better) job after graduation.
I am so sorry I can not sharing about the office here.

but.. I need to adjust my self at SO MUCH in the office.

I am sure that my personality is totally change.
I have learnt a lot here.
A LOT.

I thank God
I have grown up and see the true world


Thank God I can learn SO MUCH things that I have not learnt at school and university.

Learning is never ending.

I thank God for everything happen in my life.
For the blessing I can not see.
For every breath that I take.
For my brain that still have full conectivity to control my body.
It is so wonderful.
That is a miracle.

I thank for every person who support me.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

good bye, 2012!

Dua jam menuju 2013,

waktu terus berjalan ketika kaki berhenti menapak...

Aku terpaksa beranjak mesti hati enggan pergi.

Waktu memaksaku untuk melewati setiap detik ketika aku ingin diam di detik tertentu.

Waktu memaksaku membuka mata untuk melihat dunia.

Satu periode telah kuhadapi.

365 hari telah aku lewati,

Aku melihat banyak duka sahabat-sahabat yang kehilangan orang terkasih.

Aku baru mengetahui bahwa orang yang kuat adalah orang dapat bertahan ketika ia kehilangan orang yang paling dikasihinya.

Aku melihat banyak juga tawa yang menghiasi hari mereka.

Aku sendiri mengalami berbagai macam peristiwa yang sebelumnya tidak pernah aku tahu.

Banyak yang harus aku terima, banyak yang harus aku buang..

Jika Tuhan berkehendak, masih ada ratusan hari lain yang akan ku lalui...

Kemana Ia akan membawaku, aku tidak tahu..

Namun hatiku akan tetap percaya aku tidak pernah ditinggalkan..

Sebab itu, setiap malamnya akan aku lewati dengan syukur :)

waktu dan kamu

Waktu yang lampau memang sudah berlalu tapi semua masih terbawa waktu
Selalu bersamaku kemanapun ku pergi
Kuanggap ini bukan hal yang negatif, ataupun positif Ini hanya reaksi netral yang dihasilkan dari reaksi masa kini dan harapan masa depan
Seperti jarum, menyakiti kedua pihak namun menyatukan
Atau mungkin seperti gunting yang memisahkan
Sesuatu yang indah yang tercipta meski tak selalu terungkap
Terbungkus sang waktu sehingga kita tidak dapat melihatnya