Friday, January 15, 2021

another chapter.

After through a rough season of life - valley of darkness - I feel relief and can breath again. 

I met someone a couple year ago. He seemed a nice guy who has a physical attractiveness and sense of music that I am so interested in.  But that time, I was not so sure, then I let him go. Last year, he crossed my path again. I thought he can be my teammate or we can be a great team. And I never been better to make a big decision that time. I was really ready. 

I have my own idealism how to live this life. It can be different with others which I denied that fact. So, I accepted standards that are lower than what I desire. I gave him so many excuses which hurt me latter.

Everyone changes, but not everyone improves. Someone who could be a safe place for me became the one who would harm me, my life, and my family. And that is so horrible. I wished we're on the same side. Yet, scars are the only thing he left. 

It was a painful experience yet I get a lot of lesson learned. Fortunately, the wound is slowly moving into strength. I learned not to trust others easily, to make clear boundaries, to be assertive, and to love myself first. 

Cinta itu sederhana, yang rumit itu kamu - Langit Sore. 

another chapter.

After through a rough season of life - valley of darkness - I feel relief and can breath again.  I met someone a couple year ago. He seemed...