Monday, September 26, 2011

move on


suatu peristiwa bisa jadi membekas dalam hati.
entah itu saat jatuh cinta,
saat marah,
kaget, kecewa,
ataupun sedih.

di saat seperti itu mungkin kita membuat keputusan,
mungkin keputusan itu berupa:
"aku tidak akan mengulangi lagi"
"aku harus lebih baik"
"aku memaafkan dia"
"aku tidak akan membalas..."
dan bla... bla... bla... bla...

sejenak terlintas bahwa kesimpulannya adalah: "move on."

namun setelah waktu demi waktu berlalu, dan sepertinya lupa bagaimana rasanya peristiwa itu mempengaruhi kehidupan sehingga semua hanya terlupakan..

namun berbahagialah yang masih berusaha mewujudkannya.

"move on itu bukan bagaimana kita melupakan suatu peristiwa tapi bagaimana kita menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik setelah peristiwa tersebut terjadi."

Friday, September 23, 2011

single lady can write a letter for her mate as well :)

Dear my soulmate..

I haven't met you yet..
but I always think about you.

Who you are, where you are from, what your hobby is..
I'm so wondering..

Maybe you are taller than me and have good looking. Maybe you take the same major just like me..,
Are you karoness or no? but I believe you have the same faith like me.., you believe in Jesus Christ.

okay.... I just want to say, I miss you.

and I want to explain some things about me.
I want you to know that I had some romantic experiences in my adolescents and in my early adulthood. Especially on high school.

but it just a past.. I hope you can accept it.

what about you?

Even though I haven't met you yet, I'll be faithful to wait you 'till you find me.
Or if you have found me, please be faithful wait for me 'till I'm ready..

Nowadays, I have been hold out to keep my promise for you.
To not give my heart to any strangers.

and I wish you do the same.

I love you.
and I miss you..

always..

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Love without limits

Love without borders is the hardest thing.
But it is the best thing.

Although neglected but still hugging.
Although being lied to but not revenge.
Even if treated unfairly, but did not return.
Although used but still help when needed.

The fourth things that I hate the most: ignored, being lied, treated unfairly and taken advantage of.

I had ignored and went away. I had being lied then vengeful. I had treated unfairly and then retaliate. I had utilized later became indifferent.

I did not realize that those were not taught to me to be tough. When I reply what they did, it didn't not make me strong.

When I keep trying to love them with a hug, forgive, and helping, that's make me grow to be strong.
The first time I did, those were not so easy, even thats's
very difficult to realize it.

But it would be more difficult if in this life I do not love.

Love without limits ... Even if people godless but try to still love .. Love without borders ..

another chapter.

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