Saturday, May 24, 2014
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Thursday, May 15, 2014
and the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
It was a special day for me. It is a day when I was born.
I grew up, walking ups and downs.
Many things happened to me.
The worst thing is when I was a baby, I was almost kidnapped by someone.
The most beautiful thing that happened to me is to know Jesus.
When I was kid, my parents always celebrate my birthday.
Inviting everyone to come and I was feeling kinda special.
But today, I am not feeling special on my birthday.
It just a same day as all days.
I am not feeling grateful only on my birthday anymore.
Everyday, I feel great knowing God loves me, knowing He cares for me.
Giving me family which each member is so priceless.
Giving me friends not only to comfort and support but also to remind me when I did something wrong.
Giving me many experiences that I think I don't deserve to have it
Forgiving me, day by day.
Teaching me all the way.
Shape me like He wants me to be.
Never leave alone even when I feel He did.
I am feeling special everyday because I have You and I want to love You more.
I need more grace to do it and I know You will give what I need to glorify Your name.
Sunday, May 4, 2014
Counting days to my birthday. Frankly, I’m feeling so old. I do not know why.
I assume it due to heavy days I through in last 5 months. What kind of heavy days?
When you sure with all your faith to get something but in the end of the day all you have got is nothing. You feel disappointed, desperate, hating the circumstance. The fact seems destroy all faith you had once before.
That’s what I felt.
My faith seems disappeared. I tried to cover all my sadness behind my smile, my laugh. I tried to find things that can make me happy because crying didn’t help anymore. For example: Eat. My weight increased!! It makes another unexpected problem xD
I spend times hang out with new friends just to trying something different, other kind of fun, but I guess it did not work as well.
I began being a selfish person just to make my mood better, getting my happy self back, and to get the faith I used to have before.
But again… It didn’t work.
Today, my father helps me to remember what kind of faith I had once. It was on my Senior High School. It held a final examination. When everybody planned to cheat, I stand up and said, “I’ll try my best. I trust on you, God. I know you help me to pass this test.” Thank God. In that time, God helps me and I passed without any cheat. My father said he was really proud of me in that time.
In that time, God says “yes” for my request.
In this time, God says “no” for my request.
I know, now the problem is: Will I still count on Him? Will I still trust on Him?
For the last 5 months my disappointed answer was “No. Hard to believe in you anymore, God. You didn’t let me get what You put in front of my eyes. How come I still trust You?”
But today God answer me with Isaiah 55: 8-13 (NIV)
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways.” Declares the LORD.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower. And bread for the eater.
So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of field will clap their hands.
Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree, and instead of briers the myrtle will grow. This will be for the LORD’s renown, for an everlasting sign, which will not be destroyed.
Those words make me feel guilty and shame for feeling disappointed and I ask for forgiveness at this.
So now, if God ask me one more time if I still trust on Him, I answer: Yes, LORD.
I give Him a give in singing with my simple voice and my guitar playing (the back sound ‘woof. Woof’ is my dog’s voice xD). Click here to listen :)
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