(mis)trust

 

Talking with others is still difficult for me.

It begins when I was kid

I have some friends and I told them about a boy that I like.

They told to others.

I told to someone that I used to think I could trust

but she's not.

Well, that makes me so quite about my self, feeling, and mind.

I keep it on me (and my journal day sometime :D)

It is so hard to hard to keep it all alone.

I couldn't share my feeling.

I couldn't share my mind.

And I was suffering uncounciously.

I met someone, I know him very well, I guess..

but not close.

I don't why, I can talk about my feeling like sadness, madness, happy, and hope to him.

Hmm.. but I feel shame about what I've told.

:(

On the other hand, I feel so great than ever.

It just like you trash your dump from home to outside.

Now your home is clean just like new.

You can renovate your home,

:)

Today,

I heard from 'C' that she heard my private story from 'K'..

hmm.. Frankly, I am a bit disapointed...

But now I am a new me.

It's alright.. I don't want to make "a mess in home" again.

Next time, before I tell about my privacy I should make sure that someone wouldn't tell anyone..

To the brother that I talk about my problems.

Thank you for listening.

Thank you for supporting.

Thank you for being there.

God bless you,

and your family,

always.

:)