To know more to love more

Saturday and Sunday are not really weekend for me. What do you usually on weekend?

Hang out with friends or your boyfriend/girlfriend maybe, spend a lot time in front of tv, wake up not as early as weekday,

most of people do in weekend is rest and lazier than weekday.

Poor me, I must do my duty as music instructor in Saturday and do sunday service in Sunday.. Where is my rest day? Sorry I don't mean to complain here I just want you to know that I'm all human.

Everytime I feel like that, I think about everything God has given to me. I work and I got money, have some friends in music school, enhance my music skill. Being a sunday school teacher, I can see much smiles in children, singing with children, tell some stories. Yes, those are happiness for me. Maybe what my high school friend is right. He writes this words in his social network

If you never feel sad, you never know how does it feel to be happy. If you never feel lonely, you never know how does it deal to share with a bunch of people. All thing in life contradicts itself, but without one another, you can't say that you're really feeling alive.

Thank God for all of these feelings..

October

On the last day of September I was hope I could skip this October.

October would be so long without do nothing. Oh yeah, I haven't got another job yet.

And life was so boring... but who knows this month is so amazing.

I thankful I could through this month and I'm pretty sure I would regrets if I didn't see anything in Oct.

Graduation, Friends, Family, those are great things to me.

I have some dreams for November.

A better job, join the choir that I want, learn Japanesse more serious, create more songs maybe..., enjoy the music.

I still have faith that God will protect as He did from the first time he created me.

11 days left to November.. 

Thy will be done.

<3

Dua hari untuk selamanya :)

Apa yang dapat kamu lakukan dalam waktu dua hari dengan orang-orang yang kamu sayangi?
Apa yang ingin kamu wujudkan ketika kamu memiliki sisa waktu 48 jam dengan mereka?

Kami dapat berenang bersama. Menikmati setiap percikan air yang menyentuh kulit.
Kami dapat berjemur di bawah terik matahari dan merasakan kehangatannya.
Kemudian terkejut karena perubahan warna kulit kami.
Setelah itu aku menyadari bahwa kehangatan memang membawa perubahan :)
Kami dapat bernyanyi bersama. Membuat melodi-melodi indah seperti kenangan kami.
Kami dapat tertawa bersama bahkan pada hal-hal yang sebenarnya tidak lucu.
Kami menikmati malam bersama
dan dengan lugu memesan makanan dengan rasa pedas yang tidak tertahankan.
Kami tidur bersama-sama dan terkejut saat terbangun karena melihat wajah yang lain tepat di depan wajah kami.

Saat kami kehilangan arah untuk menentukan tujuan, kami selalu kembali ke awal dimana semua dimulai.

Ketika detik-detik terakhir akan terlewati, yakinlah itu bukan yang terakhir.

Doa akan tetap mempersatukan ketika bahkan ketika jarak memisahkan kita.
Doa adalah cara kita memeluk dari jauh...

I'm gonna miss our togetherness, guys..
(I already miss it)

:")

Bernyanyi~

Udah sekitar dua bulan aku berlatih vokal. Bernyanyi ternyata bukan hal yang mudah untukku. Sepertinya  butuh les untuk menjadi lebih percaya diri dulu baru les vokal.

Tapi senengnya, aku punya temen yang bisa jadi coach buat nyanyi. Sabar banget deh.. Coba tebak siapaaaaa....~

Dan senangnya lagiiiiiiiiiii.... aku menemukan link yang bagus buat pemanasan sebelum nyanyi.. 

1. http://soundcloud.com/vokalplus/pemanasan-latihan-01-humming

2. yang susah yang ini nihhh... belum bisa-bisa...

http://soundcloud.com/vokalplus/pemanasan-latihan-02-lip-trill

3. kalau yang ini pas banget untukku biar artikulasinya jelas

http://soundcloud.com/vokalplus/pemanasan-latihan-03

4. link yang ini juga mantap...

http://soundcloud.com/vokalplus/pemanasan-latihan-04-pelemasan

Terima kasih Mas Indra Aziz yang udah berbagi. Semoga cita-cita untuk masuk di choir nya Mas Indra Aziz bisa kesampean di tahun depan.. Habisin tahun ini untuk latihan dulu deh..

The answer

Finally I realize my last decision is wrong.
Differences is not about hating someone especially someone you love the most.
And guys, hating me will not make me stop loving you.
That's the very best decision I can make.
:)

Enjoying life

I've just finished my recital. It was awesome. Haha.. proud of it. Proud of myself no matter what others say… Proud of the efforts I did. Sometimes people doesn't see the efforts and they don't want to know the pain behind something you have got finally.

Thanks for Karince and Bombie because they are attended my performance. We took a walk to Botani Square. We had fun. Then Bombie went home. I and Karince back to the mall and … an idea crossed to our mind. We attended to stranger’s wedding party. Hahaha.. -.-“

I hope it was the only craziest thing I did.. xP

Hmm.. The feeling of sad and happy seem so close... Sometimes I can feel both feelings at the same time. For example, when I graduated of course I’m happy but in the other side I do sad because I will meet my close friend rarely since our domicile is so far each other.

One thing that I should learn is to enjoy every moment fighting fear with confidence.

Stand with my own feet.. What would life be if I had no courage to attempt anything?

I want to develop all my skills in every ability that God has given to me.

And enjoy the journey...

Good bye to childhood and teens life. I have been growing up..

Welcome my early adulthood life. 

Enjoying the present. Enjoying being mature..

Enjoying to be my self..

good bye, don't cry, and smile :)

I'm not a perfect child, not a perfect sister, not a perfect cousin, not a perfect friend, and i don't even perfect for my self. I'm not perfect at everything that conenct me into relationships with other humans.
There are always problems with communication. I often can't tell exactly what's on mind to around.
Sometimes I can't understand what other's meant as they wish.  In other time, I talk about statements that I can't accept personally. My morality holds my opinions to somebody for the sake of keeping their heart. but I doesn't I can't be honest. I can be all I am when I am with people whom I trust and love. But my trust and love maybe can't be felt by them, especially when I express it. They've thought I hate and judge them with my feelings and that's just horrible because everything messed up. My feelings ruined everything. I won't regret anything. at least I try. I've been thinking about this and I'm sure they will be better without me. Let's go back to the past when you are all have never met me. When I wasn't a part of this group. Let's go back into the past when you all are fine with my absence. I'll go on my own way but please, just don't forget me.