Having a psychology issue always need more effort to have
friends, even just a friend, or close friend(s). Blessed me, I have improved
myself - when people around me with their kindness trying to get close to me, I
brave enough to welcoming them!
At the first time, I think, “How if I look silly on their
eyes?”
“How if they can’t accept my presence”
“What they will do with my unfunny joke?”
And proudly write a story about ‘How I met KamiKita’ to
bomce, cinday, gadsam, aloince, dance, rince, and me also J here it goes:
If you all remember, it was a shining afternoon. I sat
around you, guys. Waiting for class? Hmm, at first, YES! But… You all persuade
me to skip the class for reasons! Hahaa. But it’s okay. I have another class
with you all. An everlasting class of friendship starts from that day.
Before we left Hall C, I let you all know about my broken
heart with my ex boyfriend. I broke up with him in 14 February when people call
it a day of love. Never mind, that is not my point anyway. Then we are all went
to Plaza Semanggi to lunch, talking each other, window shopping, and forget
about the class.
Day by day, we are getting closer. I know you all better.
Maybe not closer just like you are all each other. But I thankful that you guys trust me enough to tell your secrets. And
secret makes friend stronger.
Actually not only secret, every struggle we have, made us
has more attachment. One day, I have a conflict with one of you. At that time,
I though like this: “You don’t understand me. You are a very egoist person. Why
in this earth there is a person like you? You
are just like a heartless girl. You don’t deserve a friendship if you don’t
appreciate your friend!”
Month by month, we didn’t contact. We just like a stranger,
cold and uncaring, act like we didn’t know each other.
And sometime I blamed myself for that and though it would be
better if I went out from all of you just like at first time. One of you, said,
that was not totally because of me so then I didn’t need to walk out.
Then, I
stayed.
Finally, we met in one of our friend and you talk to me as
usual just like nothing at all. Actually, I felt awkward at that moment. But
deepest in my heart, I felt happy.
And now all is clear between us. No more angry, hate, or
negative emotions.
She is now the only one who walks in when the others walk
out. I proudly say that the one I thought my enemy is become my best friend.
For you all, you are the priceless gift from God. I’m glad
we can meet and improve each other. Keep our friendship will last until we
become grandma. Hahaha.
And to one of you that I don’t know where you are, please
stay.
Just stay.
Stay.
