Randy Pausch

Dear Randy Pausch,
I know it is too late to write a letter for you. And I know, you will never read this letter that I wrote. You might be now somewhere only God and you - yourself knew. But I could not hold my hand to type these word by word to express my feeling and my gratitude how blessed I am by your book. Your books has been being my friend in this week. I understand your purpose to bless others as much as possible with your life - I am sure you accomplish it, you just add one person, and it is me.
I thank God for letting me read your book, thank God for letting you finish this book. You teach me about the bricks in front of me now. You tell me that the bricks are not to make us do not see things what we want to get, the bricks are to show us how bad we want the things. You tell me to not give up on our childhood dreams and how you work with it.
What I really love about your book is you. Instead of writing wisdom words, I love your way when you show that you do not let your pancreatic cancer -your 3-6 month left living- is not steal your spirit to leave. You teach me to treat the disease not the symptom. You show me that we never accomplish our success by our own self. It is need others. And recognize their kindness is a part of our successful journey.
Thank you, Randy Pausch, for help me to see my self through your perspective of living. And you close your book with the statement that I need the most this time.
"It's not achieve your dreams. It's about to lead your life. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself. The dreams will come to you."
For right now I failed to achieve some of dreams, and dying with them, I almost have no courage to live my life again. But I need to die with the memories, not me, not the dreams. I have to stand up again. Lead my life right way, and God will take care the whole things. The dreams will come to me.


Dear Jai and the children,
Jai, you surely have a very incredible husband. Dylan, Logan, Chloe, you all are winning the parent lottery, just like your dad had. I pray for each of you, you can be what you want to be, just like Randy wish for you all. I really would like to meet you all and talk about something meaningful life to encourage people to live their life - to be what they are want to be.

Dear Jeffrey Zaslow,
You are the best!


With all my respect to your family,
Cynthia Eveline

How Can I Keep From Singing? by Chris Tomlin

There is an endless song, Echoes in my soul, I hear the music ring,
And though the storms may come, I am holding on to the rock I cling.

How can I keep from singing your praise?
How can I ever say enough how amazing is Your love...
How can I keep from shouting Your Name?
I know I am loved by the King and it makes my heart want to sing.

I will lift my eyes in the darkest night for I know my Savior lives.

And I will walk with You.
Knowing You'll see me through and sing the songs You give.

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step and fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up

Sing 'cause You're there

I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord, when I call to You in prayer.

I can sing with my last breath,

Sing for I know that I'll sing with the angels and the saints around the throne..

April

What...? It's April already?
Can't believe three months has passed in this year.
I feel like running so fast with days.

Kunjungan ke Dinas Sosial Panti Werdha

Aku teringat akan minatku pada pelajaran psikologi. Pada mulanya aku berminat untuk mendalami dunia anak. Menurutku, anak merupakan makhluk yang perlu bimbingan dan masih harus didampingi. Hal tersebut memang benar dan cukup melupakan sosok lain. Sosok tersebut adalah lansia. Orang-orang yang cukup terlupakan oleh orang-orang muda yang (katanya) sibuk bekerja. Padahal para lansia memiliki cukup pengalaman, pelajaran, dan nilai-nilai hidup yang dapat diberitahukan kepada orang-orang muda. Tidak jarang mereka diabaikan, diremehkan, bahkan dihindari karena dianggap merepotkan.

Aku senang mendapatkan kesempatan untuk berkunjung ke salah satu Panti Werdha di Jakarta. Masing ingat tidak pelajaran PPKn SD dulu? Aku ingat tentang salah satu pasal UUD 1945 yang isinya kurang lebih: pengemis dan anak terlantar dipelihara oleh negara. Nah, Panti Werdha yang aku kunjungi itu salah satu tempat yang disediakan pemerintah. Kakek-kakek dan nenek-nenek di sana sebagian besar hasil razia satpol PP. 

Di sana aku sempat mengobrol dengan beberapa nenek. Kasihan juga, ada yang masuk sana pada saat sedang berjualan di jalan kemudian di bawa ke Panti. Ada juga yang dibawa sama keluarganya. Berbagai macam alasan sampai akhirnya mereka ada di tempat itu.

Secara fisik, Panti Werdha itu sangat terurus dengan baik. Bersih, nyaman, besar. Semua fasilitas ada. Ada juga kegiatan-kegiatan yang di sediakan oleh pihak panti. Tapi tetap saja mereka........ kesepian.

Jadi aku bersama teman-temanku merancang suatu acara di sana yang bertujuan untuk mengurangi rasa kesepian mereka. Setelah kami rancang dan berdiskusi dengan dosen pembimbing, akhirnya pada hari Selasa, 23 Maret 2015, terlaksanalah acara tersebut. Peserta yang hadir 15 orang. Memang program kami hanya dirancang untuk beberapa orang saja. Hanya lansia yang memenuhi syarat yang dapat mengikuti kegiatan ini. Syaratnya antara lain sehat secara fisik dan mental.

Puji Tuhan acaranya berjalan dengan lancar. Kakek-kakek dan nenek-nenek di sana terlihat sangat gembira dan berterima kasih kepada kami. Aku juga sangat senaaaaaaangg sekali karena dapat membuat mereka bahagia. Setidak-tidaknya pada kami pernah hadir dalam hidup mereka dan memberikan sesuatu yang membahagiakan mereka. 

Aku juga baru menyadari hal-hal lainnya mengenai lansia ketika kelas psikogerontologi. Berhubung ayahku sudah ada pada tahap lansia, dan ibuku memasuki masa pra-lansia, aku jadi memahami apa yang mungkin akan terjadi secara fisik, mental, dan sosial. 

Ada pepatah yang megatakan, "Kita terlalu sibuk bertumbuh sehingga melupakan orang tua kita yang bertambah tua."

  

Surprising Month

I am not surprise when God surprises me. I mean, he is really really a surprising God. Really.

A couple weeks ago, he brings back my old friend. Since we rarely have a conversation, I don't want to bother or annoy him. Suprisingly, he reached me on Line on a Sunday evening. We had some kind a pleasant converasation and decided to meet on Feb 14, 2015. Means..... Means.. Finally I would have a 'normal' what they called valentine day. For me, valentine day is not really a big thing. But what makes it big for about last four years is - I don't know why- my (any) relationship always ended up on Feb 14. Terrible.
So, I was so excited when I know at least I would go have fun with my old friend.

And this week, I was suprised with what God brings into my days. Almost each day on last week, I met my friends. On Monday I met my Life Change Group's friend. Tuesday, I met Life Group's friends. Wednesday, I met my speech club's friends. Thursday, I met one of LG's friend. Friday, I met my first friend when I was in College, which is my best friend. And tonight I met my best friend also. I actually have no idea what He wants me to do by meeting so many friends than usual. I prefer to think that, the meeting is a present from God, to show me that He blessed me. As simple as that.

February was a surprise month for me. Maybe I haven't accomplish my latest goal for 2014 but I don't need always to think about goal. I only need to enjoy my journey. And yes, I do.

Powerless

One afternoon, a lecturer ask a magical question to me,

"If you have a power to change one thing in your life, what would you change?"

Since that moment I know I never be fine.

Never.

A blessing

Luar biasa sekali rasanya ketika kita bertemu dengan orang-orang besar, berbagi mimpi bersama, dan mewujudkannya :)